Lina Pilgrim

I call it eveninganxiety. It is like a suffocating pressure, slowly creeping up on you. I have'nt had it for so long but yesterday and now, I do. So I try to remember what I usually do when it becomes like this. I'm a little agitated because I had to throw away my heatingblanket because my dogs pissed on it twice. Heat on the back and on the buttocks is very good, well at least for my kind of anxiety. I become cold when I have it. Also... eating oatmeal. It's warm, thick and heavy, which makes the blood go to your stomach and calms you down. 

I also try to focus on things which brings me comfort and safety. That kind of nostalgic and real security, you know? Like, when your mother read a bedtime story, watching a movie you loved as a child or something as strongly comforting. I've made some as strong things to do as a teen and as an adult (?), like watching The Muppets, The Dark Crystal, The Moomins, playing video games and listening to music. Sometimes it doesn't help but I am not experience that kind of severe anxiety. It is just a slow and creeping one, as I still have control over myself. 

Focusing on where you are is another good thing. I am here, sitting here, this is my wall, that is my pencil, this is my desk, my chair feels good, my poster is pretty, my dog lies beside me in her basket, there are dirty dishes from oatmeal next to me, I have a lot of paint... and I would need to clean, at least the chocolate paper away... oh, and my crystal and Final Fantasy 9 OST, and Zidane figure and Special Edition Box of the Last Story is right next to my screen. And... how I once laughed at my big porcelaine frog which is holding some of my brushes in it's mouth... like it's puking. It's next to me too.

Well... there is a ton of things you can do but the best thing is to try to keep calm, present, and focused. Easyminded... and childish. Warm, and as secure as possible.